Today I took Dr. Joe Dispenza (neuroscientist and best-selling author) with me on my morning jog! Well, not literally but I listened to him on my phone talking about Information to Transformation as part of the Hay House World Summit (free for a period of time). What was amazing was that I felt like he was talking specifically to me!
One of my ongoing challenges is working to dissolve my core belief that I am not safe. Through doing EFT/ tapping I have uncovered and released some of the traumatic events relating to my ancestors where their lives were genuinely in danger which have definitely helped but it is still having an impact on my life. It came to a head recently in Miami when we could not find anywhere to stay. We had booked somewhere but last minute was cancelled so although we had somewhere to stay when we got there, we could only stay there a few days. It felt as though the universe had conspired against us and only presented possibilities that were in the worst parts of Miami where our hire car would be the best car in the street confirming my belief that I really wasn’t safe. Lots of tapping and surrendering brought us kind new friends who helped us out :)
When I go jogging I always jog in the streets as my belief told me that it was not safe for women to jog alone in the fields. As I jogging and listening to Joe and jogging, he was saying that in order to change our personality which is made up from our thoughts, feelings and actions we need to come from pure consciousness.
Joe was telling me that “It is only when we become pure consciousness, when we detached from our identity, when we forget about our body, when we disconnect from our problems when we become nobody, no-one, no thing, nowhere, no time. That is the moment we become pure consciousness…”. In that moment I literally felt nobody, no-one and everything at the same time – totally connected to the world around me. I felt like I was running effortlessly, flying free.
In the next moment I realised I was coming to the end of the road and to continue I had to take a footpath into the countryside (unsafe) or turn back (safe). I could feel an adrenalin rush at the thought of continuing onto the footpath and decided to go a little way and see how I felt. After a few feet, I felt too nervous and I turned back to the road.
Joe says that you have to look beyond your life in order to change your life is the art. Familiar emotions are records of the past. As soon as the one breaks free from the negative emotions, one were able to perceive a new future. So I was thinking, I want to break free of not feeling safe and just at that moment I passed another footpath into a field. Joe told me that I am at my absolute best when I get beyond myself. He said that in real time people are fighting with themselves. The fact that they struggle is important because there is a very delicate balance between intention (what you want) and and surrendering (letting go for a bigger mind to begin to organise in a way that is right for us). And I thought, that’s me – to go or not to go! I won’t change unless I do something different, So I just thought DO IT! So I crossed the road into the field and thought I can turn back at any time!
As I was crossing the road to the gate that led to the field I began imagining the worst case scenario and remembered a news item from some 20 years ago that had always stuck in my mind of the murder of a mother and daughter in a field while they were walking home from school. As that memory popped into my head, Joe told me that the hormones of stress cause us to select the worst case scenario as a potential future event that we need to protect ourselves from.
The problem is that from the infinite possibilities we are selecting the worst possible outcome for a possible scenario and bracing ourselves from it and protecting ourselves from that outcome and our bodies can’t differentiate between real and perceived fears.
The more we are ruled by our fear, the more we try to control the outcome to get what we want. But when we are no longer feeling disconnected our heart begins to open and we begin to feel connected to something greater.
As I heard this I began to relax and trust (and tap!) and I began to notice of beauty of the huge sky around me, the expanse of the fields in front of me and the glistening of the grass dancing in the sun. I was filled with the feeling of freedom, peace, exhilaration and gratitude. Thank you Joe.